Father: What are you searching for? Why is your internal voice in such frenetic motion?
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Me: Relevance. Striving. Finances. Status. Significance. 
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Father: Hmmm…
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Me: I know I shouldn’t. I know that is not really satisfying. I know……
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Father: Go deeper. What are you really searching for?
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Me: Security……in things. Pleasure….in things.
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Father: I won’t open doors that will take you further from me. Something may seem like its the best thing for you, but if it makes you more self-secure, it lessens your intimacy with me. You still have to pass some tests before you can go to the next level. Know my heartbeat. Get in tune with my rhythm.
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Me: I want to know you Father. (sigh). I’m disappointed in myself that its so hard for me. 
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Father: I’m not. I know exactly how weak you are. And I’m still here. But I’m also still waiting. Let’s go child. Just because I’m patient doesn’t mean I don’t want to get going. No reason to stay weak when I’m offering you strength.
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Me: What beautiful love. Give me strength and greater faith Father.